The Lesson

I see now that my love was the magic.

It was the magic in our relationship all along.

You only reacted to my love…

Not really feeling it.

How could you, having no love of your own to give.

I am the source of my love.

You have left the source,

Which in turn leaves me no poorer.

I see how love and magic heal.

I see how love can bring and be change,

bare all things.

How love can forgive even the deepest of hurts.

I AM and hold the space to love.

I cherish the magic.

Cherish love… keep it warm and alive.

Only now, not for you….

For me.

Maybe one day too

for someone I want to share with.

Someone with love of his own to add to the magic

that will become us.

May 26, 2011

Self Portrait

The distance between us grows.

Cold inside,

like the waning winter sun

on the precipice of a new tomorrow.

Transitions - apparent and unavoidable.

My thoughts fall silently now, like snowflakes.

Wondering,

walking alone already-

though the time has not yet come.

Through the looking glass all becomes clear!

Seeing,

I am no longer who I was.

My true reflection

I have pondered for all these months... in your eyes.

I don’t like it,

the discomfort of becoming me.

Changes of course bring change, even to the depths of us.

Growing into my new self, more in tune with what I need.

While you push me away,

I am no longer in tune with making you happy.

My heart realizes, in the snowy silence , that this is not going to last.

Without my insistence, consistency is not attainable here.

No answers, just a beautiful mosaic.

I pick up the pieces of my life and arrange them-

creating my most precious masterpiece.

Essence

It's a new day.
Bright sun glistens on snow,
warming me through the window.
I am by myself
One, Me, silent.
Strong, growing,
ALIVE.
Nature is within me
I am nature.
Connected in this way,
Connected to Spirit
I will never be alone.

~Sagemyst~

Suspended Intentions

My world is moving like clockwork
To the ticking of the old pendulum near the hearth.
Piece by piece tasks get done, it comes together.

Chapter by chapter I immerse myself in a book.
Trying hard to overlook the hollow feeling
Echoing deep in my gut. Something missing.

Knowing that it is for the best. This time away from you.
Seeing the contrast of what we were just days ago… in pictures
To what we are possibly becoming.

Intermingled with the sadness in my heart
Is a gold thread of hope.
This time please let it be different!
The cravings fed for the last time.

Busy mind, busy heart all processing.
As I walk along the very path that I think I am searching for.
Wondering always what to be…. When of course
I AM what I am being.

How long will I wait here among the din of my life?
Restless to hear your voice and hold you.
Trying to stay on the same page,
Holding to faith.

Feeling the breath move in and out of me.
Tears held back for lack of a reason to cry.
Suspended in time, hanging by the last ray of sunlight.

Tomorrow is another day to journey home.

~Sagemyst~

Self Awareness

Consciousness begs the question:

What am I here to do?

Why am I aware of what I am and am not?

Life answers with the gift of creation

Consciousness is love alive

Awareness creating itself

to stand apart from the void

Balancing aspects of all just to be

OM

Males creating and sowing seeds

Females bearing and nurturing fruit

All life striving to be more

Alive

Creative

Present

Expansive

Aware eternally

Of all that is - NOW

Transition

As hope lingers on the last thin haze of daylight,

We move now into the colder chill of night.

Aware of the changing light, the hours painting abstractly.

The challenges before us collective, ever moving, connected.

One vibrant ball of energy that we are.

Our contribution, heart energy... adds to the glow.

The pitch approaching a crescendo as we dance.

Always dancing in the light we create.

Wondering often how to make the halo of energy spread further,

Touch more hearts open more minds.

We are growing, ever reaching to know more.

Ever reaching to give more and lend a hand, a word, love...

To the next soul to fall in step with us seeking too.

This is the way of the Lightworkers.

Striving always to maintain balance.

Leading by example, with kindness, joy and light.

Outshining the darkness as much as we can so the path is warm, and alive.

Others seek us as they begin to understand,

or wonder what needs to be understood.

Getting jostled in the tides and emotional swells

Of the collective heaving and surging forward.

As one we are escaping the pull of darkness ever so slowly,

Awakening one by one NOW!

On this special day of higher vibration .

Can you feel it? Do you know ...innately, primally?

Do you understand all that awaits us?

Bask, notice, enjoy the changing light...follow the symbols.

Feel the current, stronger now,

just barely perceptible but by nuance and intuition.

Listen to your heart, your whispers…

Open to the possibilities, help lead the way.

11-11-09

Sagemyst

Our Gifts

Accepting and aligning ourselves with our source

We feel the mystery of creation spiraling through

Wondering where it will take us brings hope of another joyous frightening and rewarding ride

Another dawn with choices fresh

new thoughts following every breath

The gifts we share never leave because they are ours

and we are eternally flowing wellsprings of creation

now and always

Can you feel and know that beautiful face of you?