A Year of Wonder 2010

A year of wonder

Through all 4 seasons we have been growing now

Summer fling turned into quite a thing

This undulating thing never clear for more than a day or two.

Through all 4 seasons smiles and words shared

Tears shed lessons learned

but seldom completely understood.

Renewal awakened

The connection strong in spite of ourselves.

The missing pieces making acceptance harder.

Always tests and hurdles in the foundation of us

Honesty has been challenged.

Acceptance has been challenged.

Love awaits, hopefully unchallenged and unscathed to remain

Freely given.

With a heavy heart and I cloudy head

I sit here wondering.

Is the reason this feels like home

because maybe it is just like home?

The place I always felt alone

The place I always worked so hard to be loved.

Red Wine and Dark Chocolate

Red wine and dark chocolate.

Timeless notions of romance,

love eternal...dripping

from the sides of a vanilla candle.

Slowly burning like the flame of true love.

One slow burn after the next,

all my dreams go up in smoke, swirling...

like the ice in the bottom of the glass,

so long ago broken at your feet.

In the times of passion playing with the fire,

the times of reckless abandon

racing under the stars holding your chest

wind taking my breath away, whipping through my hair.

Roses, crab apple blossoms and countless geese.

Swans watched with magic in their eyes...the story unfolded

the miles walked among them, smelling the nectar,

your scent lingering on my mind through time.

Ageless, timeless like red wine and chocolate...

Delicious as a memory lingers.....

without fear, there is no pain.

~Sagemyst~

The Lesson

I see now that my love was the magic.

It was the magic in our relationship all along.

You only reacted to my love…

Not really feeling it.

How could you, having no love of your own to give.

I am the source of my love.

You have left the source,

Which in turn leaves me no poorer.

I see how love and magic heal.

I see how love can bring and be change,

bare all things.

How love can forgive even the deepest of hurts.

I AM and hold the space to love.

I cherish the magic.

Cherish love… keep it warm and alive.

Only now, not for you….

For me.

Maybe one day too

for someone I want to share with.

Someone with love of his own to add to the magic

that will become us.

May 26, 2011

Self Portrait

The distance between us grows.

Cold inside,

like the waning winter sun

on the precipice of a new tomorrow.

Transitions - apparent and unavoidable.

My thoughts fall silently now, like snowflakes.

Wondering,

walking alone already-

though the time has not yet come.

Through the looking glass all becomes clear!

Seeing,

I am no longer who I was.

My true reflection

I have pondered for all these months... in your eyes.

I don’t like it,

the discomfort of becoming me.

Changes of course bring change, even to the depths of us.

Growing into my new self, more in tune with what I need.

While you push me away,

I am no longer in tune with making you happy.

My heart realizes, in the snowy silence , that this is not going to last.

Without my insistence, consistency is not attainable here.

No answers, just a beautiful mosaic.

I pick up the pieces of my life and arrange them-

creating my most precious masterpiece.

Essence

It's a new day.
Bright sun glistens on snow,
warming me through the window.
I am by myself
One, Me, silent.
Strong, growing,
ALIVE.
Nature is within me
I am nature.
Connected in this way,
Connected to Spirit
I will never be alone.

~Sagemyst~

Suspended Intentions

My world is moving like clockwork
To the ticking of the old pendulum near the hearth.
Piece by piece tasks get done, it comes together.

Chapter by chapter I immerse myself in a book.
Trying hard to overlook the hollow feeling
Echoing deep in my gut. Something missing.

Knowing that it is for the best. This time away from you.
Seeing the contrast of what we were just days ago… in pictures
To what we are possibly becoming.

Intermingled with the sadness in my heart
Is a gold thread of hope.
This time please let it be different!
The cravings fed for the last time.

Busy mind, busy heart all processing.
As I walk along the very path that I think I am searching for.
Wondering always what to be…. When of course
I AM what I am being.

How long will I wait here among the din of my life?
Restless to hear your voice and hold you.
Trying to stay on the same page,
Holding to faith.

Feeling the breath move in and out of me.
Tears held back for lack of a reason to cry.
Suspended in time, hanging by the last ray of sunlight.

Tomorrow is another day to journey home.

~Sagemyst~

Self Awareness

Consciousness begs the question:

What am I here to do?

Why am I aware of what I am and am not?

Life answers with the gift of creation

Consciousness is love alive

Awareness creating itself

to stand apart from the void

Balancing aspects of all just to be

OM

Males creating and sowing seeds

Females bearing and nurturing fruit

All life striving to be more

Alive

Creative

Present

Expansive

Aware eternally

Of all that is - NOW

Transition

As hope lingers on the last thin haze of daylight,

We move now into the colder chill of night.

Aware of the changing light, the hours painting abstractly.

The challenges before us collective, ever moving, connected.

One vibrant ball of energy that we are.

Our contribution, heart energy... adds to the glow.

The pitch approaching a crescendo as we dance.

Always dancing in the light we create.

Wondering often how to make the halo of energy spread further,

Touch more hearts open more minds.

We are growing, ever reaching to know more.

Ever reaching to give more and lend a hand, a word, love...

To the next soul to fall in step with us seeking too.

This is the way of the Lightworkers.

Striving always to maintain balance.

Leading by example, with kindness, joy and light.

Outshining the darkness as much as we can so the path is warm, and alive.

Others seek us as they begin to understand,

or wonder what needs to be understood.

Getting jostled in the tides and emotional swells

Of the collective heaving and surging forward.

As one we are escaping the pull of darkness ever so slowly,

Awakening one by one NOW!

On this special day of higher vibration .

Can you feel it? Do you know ...innately, primally?

Do you understand all that awaits us?

Bask, notice, enjoy the changing light...follow the symbols.

Feel the current, stronger now,

just barely perceptible but by nuance and intuition.

Listen to your heart, your whispers…

Open to the possibilities, help lead the way.

11-11-09

Sagemyst

Our Gifts

Accepting and aligning ourselves with our source

We feel the mystery of creation spiraling through

Wondering where it will take us brings hope of another joyous frightening and rewarding ride

Another dawn with choices fresh

new thoughts following every breath

The gifts we share never leave because they are ours

and we are eternally flowing wellsprings of creation

now and always

Can you feel and know that beautiful face of you?

New Time

Time teeters on my shoulders as a toddler struggling for puchase by grasping my brow.

What to do with this new acquistion - time? He taunts me, slows me and challenges my vision, overwhelming me with freedom and choice of direction.

I take his hands and we achieve a balance. We gaze into each others eyes and convey gratitude.

There is new life on-board and possibilities are real. I point, he smiles and off we go with steady determination, step by step the journey has begun.

Being Here

Souls accept the burden of time

to do the things we don't know

Yet

People live without concern

for the nature of their being

then die and remember

why they lived

and who they are

Such a pity

they had to wait

to know

and feel

the truth

of Love

Finding ourselves Now

we enter limitless love

and accept our eternal souls

unshackled from time

and free to fly

Now

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Autumn

A peaceful stream gurgles down the mountainside.

A leaf moves silently along its current,

Meandering, flowing free.

Drifting around obstacles...

No resistance.

The current pulls it along

Gently floating to its destination.

Like that leaf we are set free

By surrender, by trust,

By accepting and being still.

We are moving effortlessly now

Along our current, around obstacles.

Loving silently, deeply, primally

Knowing innately that we are on our path.

Open to the possibilities.

Trusting that all is as it should be.

Trusting one another and the universe to begin to

Grow in peace not chaos.

~Sagemyst~

Signs

Today's Lesson

A tiger can't change it's stripes.
Once a tiger, always a tiger.
No amount of magic
can untwist long worn stripes.
Same lesson, different day.
The universe speaks.
I listen.

Leap of Faith

Calm awakening in my soul.

Like a shimmer I feel your heart

Reaching, touching, pressing against mine.

Synchronicity, beating

Only we can hear it.

Like that shooting star,

magnificent whispers across the sky!

Flying, free falling now into your arms.

Wake me up, land me safely?

Butterfly kisses on lips speaking true.

Heart to heart.

Under the surface is where the truth drowns.

The lies entangled in language, missing, omitted,
hidden...

like most dark essence, is unable to withstand the light.

Trust goes by the wayside
as faith dwindles like an extinguished flame.

Even as the words of love and allegiance flow,
like smoke rising to the ceiling.

As they are spoken to me, the plume of lies grows bigger.

There appears to be no end
to the hurt perpetuated.

Time can heal all wounds, they say.

Time also can help us to see true.

The bright shining truth of impossibility.

Love glazing over the lies.

Shadows outlining truth, like the silver lining at sunset,
exposed.

~Sagemyst~

Searching

The Burden of freedom
a view unseen

Memories of love
shattering illusions
making life taste of stale bread

More will come
as life chooses
in the ever changing
face of now

Presence is golden
Yet confusion reigns
where love is contained
as a prisoner of a limiting mind

In acceptance lies truth
clarity
vision
to be free
Unburdened by the love
Of all that is

Acceptance is the key
to the ever-Loving heart
It's grasp illusive
It's virtue undeniable
It's time
Now

Wings

The view is spectacular.
clear sight, awakening senses,
as I see you with new eyes.
The rush of uncertainty...
Finality, dancing between us like untamed electric current.
Golden threads of connection.
Hearts ablaze, raw, vibrating higher...
Forcefully turning away from the flame.
Changing, leap of faith...
Hands clasped.
Passing through the fire.
Asunder, Love remains.

~Sagemyst~

Seeing

It’s subtle.
Like the sound of a shooting star.
Just as powerful,
When a heart breaks.

Love is patient and kind,
It is written.
Love is intense and can be difficult.
This we know too.

Truths flood in, screaming to be heard.
All we seek is happiness--
which is hidden in choices.
Surrender and creation is all that there is.

When you see love
written on the face of your love
by the pen of another,
All rules burn. Reason chokes.

At that moment the eagle is set free.
A star shoots across the sky.
A tear falls.
All things move forward as they are meant to be.

~Sagemyst~